Packed out Halloween weekend. Sunday 1st November 2009, 11:58 AM
I know ive told a few people that i was off to see X factor this weekend in Wembley, which has been true but we didn't actually get in! Alex and Simon, both from Brighton came down to join us in London. they has some spare tickets which are valid if the VIP members don't show up. We were meant to meet them in London about 5ish but lines were down and bus replacement services took a lot longer than planned. Because of this me and paul were sent to the back of the queue with Alex and Simon 50 yards ahead.
When we got nearer the front they counted 30 people as standby with the cut-off just in front of us, we were told that it wasn't worth us waiting, so we visited Alex and Simon and stood with them. It got to about 6 and as the show started all of us were told we wouldn't get in since a lot of the VIP members had turned up. we was only waiting for an hour, but we felt bad for Alex and Simon since i think they were there best part of 3! we went in search off food and then went off clubbing with Alex till about 4am and headed home in good, but tired spirits.
Today me and Dee booked rock climbing with Paul and Ross and had a fantastic time. I was attached to Ross and Paul attached to Dee, at either end of the rope, and the midst of the rope at the top of the climbing route. I thought for sure if Ross slipped and fell i would for sure be catapulted into space, but surprisingly, i controlled Ross on the way down via a lever release system slowly lowering him down when he reached the top, even though he's a fair amount heavier than me, but a built like a brick!
It was great spending time with Ross but what i can gather, he still loves his ex, but had to break on distance terms. He wants to live somewhere besides the city and from what i can gather he's in that picture, not me. I have to show him what i have to offer, but most of the vibes are getting are mate ones, even in his texts...
Oh and also FINALLY bought my 350D SLR camera and playing about as you can see
Trying a different direction... Sunday 6th September 2009, 8:02 PM
Its been so long since i wrote a blog, so thought id just add a little something here. Ive been up to a lot, Joining the gym, New phone, A small crash on my bike, out and about too. Its nice to have a speedy phone again, I invested into the iPhone 3GS and its not bad at all, the camera is great quality although, no flash, the movies are great quality and smooth, and overall pace of the phone is great. 3G and my network is a little patchy though, you can be in a static location sitting down somewhere and have full network with 3G, then all of a sudden it can be searching for a network, can be rather frustrating, conclusion; Edge, more coverage but slower, 3G fast but VERY patchy.
Ive been going to the gym, joined Fitness First and am putting on weight, going about 3-4 times a week and loving it! Paul should be joining at the end of the month so that's something to look forward to. Claire said she may join too so could be a very fun time! It been good going out and clubbing with Paul, Dee and Claire, and also Joobie, Claires room-mate, going to Fire, and last night Beyond, fun stuff!
Also had a minor crash on my bike recently, was merging between centre right lane to the left and managed to drive right into an island that separate the two lanes, although there was nothing on it, i failed to see it in darkness, drove into catapulting me off the bike, cracked the fairings, snapped the brake lever, bent and scraped the scraper bar, and finally ruined the front wheel, bursting the tyre and tearing the metal by a spoke.
Ebay is such a lifesaver, I got a new rim for £75 that i cleaned up. I then primered, painted, and lacquered the rim, and got the type and brake disc swapped over from a local company for a tenner and the other 3 parts i got off of ebay to for about £6-7 for the brake handle and scraper bar, sorted! i do need find someone that can repair fairings but considering the rim i did, I may have a shot at it myself...
Happy New Year! Thursday 1st January 2009, 10:52 PM
Evening peeps! I truly hope everyone has had a fantastic christmas, and an enjoyable new year. which is weird considering that was only last night. I realise i take everything to extremeties, but this christmas has been the hardest on me. on two week up to chirstmas i was writing my uni essay on server performace which i had so much trouble undertsanding it.
up to the 23rd work would not let me have any time off since it was obviously Christmas, although they did give me a significant payrise, so am very happy about that. I had to do 70% of all my xmas shopping on the 25th, and unfortunately Paul couldnt come since he had a wedding to prepare for and also family too. When i had done that i went for a nados with chris and when i got home was rushed out the door to go to my sister for christmas day, thats when i started talking to this guy called antony...
Christmas day we had a nice Christmas meal and presents, you know the usual thing. backwards and forward on my laptop talking to this guy called antony still, Its so nice to have a glass of mulled wine (since no-one else likes it) and i ended u falling asleep on the couch after three :P.
I was then taken to my mums that evening where me and antony where progressing past the ice breaking conversations and moving onto some better subject and it seemed that we had both taken a liking for each other...
Boxing day was really nice since i had another meal with turkey and goose, my sis, neices and her husband where round for that too so we had a real nice meal there, which i dont get to have often so was great for me to appreciate, again texting and chatting over phone and net.
I stayed at my mates Dan that evening wwhich was rather amusing since we had to stay in his room since the whole house had no heating, and was freezing, with no hot water either, but i fixed his TV and cabling, but only to find out his repaired home cinema wasnt so repaired.
The next day I arranged to meet this guy called antony at Bank station, which wasnt too far from Dans. I felt pretty good about meeting him, but was dreading he had a camp or high voice, as me and paul say "look like tarzan, sound like jane" . But he didnt, he look stunning, was a tall, good looking, guy...
I met him and we went back to mine since i wanted to invite some mates round for a drink and a laugh. Chris and his new partner Aaron came kieran and paul came round a bit later. We played some card games and overall it was a good night.
The next day Antony popped back to his to freshen up, and i met him that night. It was so nice sleeping in his arms and he has the cutest smile in the world, especailly when he laughs, its so incredibly sweet!
The next morning we lay in bed together doing nothing whatsoever, was great! I can be a really stressed person so hes a great person to say "stop, it doesnt matter!" -not that he literally says that but when im with him i dont really have much to worry about when im with him. By surprise he asked me it we could go out that morning, I was pretty content to say yes that morning, i mean, what did i have to lose?
When we finally got out of bed, we decided to create an event for the New Years Eve. It wasnt a bad turnout as well, the brads where so generous with the bits that they brought, wanted to thank Simon and Phil for the champagne toast, My mum for the snacks and that homemade pizza, blimey that went, i didnt even try it lol! As always i want to thank paul and ryan for making everyone feel welcome, ryan for making people giggle, and paul for the help and karaoke Finally i want to thank my sweetheart Antony for bringing me into the new year with a smile from ear to ear youve really made the end of my 2008 and what a refreshing, happy, warm, loving, sweet introduction to 2009!
Synchronization Wednesday 10th December 2008, 2:09 AM
You know, when me and paul first met, I predicted the best, he was with brad and I was with Dan, I thougt that yuoa was going to be a milestone in my life. My mate had found someone cute and I found someone that was phenominal. Dan was everything I needed and Paul was all that I needed, he's. A great guy and that's all I need to describe in words.
We went out for the Tuesday social but sometimes you have to realize that 3 is a crowd, I'm looking around and see Ryan and Paul having a nice time. Chris and his mate are having a nice time. Everyones having a great time together, but for some reason I felt out of place.
Alex is a guy really like although he's I out of the country at the moment. Dan (ironicly a different person) is someone I am quite interestsed in too, but for me I'm just taking things as they come and see how they go.
I don't want to be selfish and resent Paul as a mate since be has something that I crave for, I just wish I has the optios he has. I think the best sotuation would be for me and him to be mates with another half each. I just sometimes that me and him could have a laugh with someone else in mind
I don't know, sometimes things are hard to interpret, weather your there of not. I just find it's hard to find someone who I can feel for and possibly have the same back.........
My word, what a weekend! From leaving work Friday night to arriving home on Tuesday morning, I'm feeling pretty shattered. Me and Paul left from Victoria about 8, and arriving in Brighton about an hour later. From there we moved on a bar and socialized with the locals. The have a burger bar in Brighton , which I can remember the name of, something grub, good burgers but long queues. We didn't stay for too long since we where up early the next day to see the parade.
Saturday morning it was a bit of a rush getting up and out the door by 10:30. We proceeded to Weatherspoon's to get some breakfast, what you have to realise is the vast amount of people that where there led to extreme waiting times for jut about anything. Whilst having some casual banter over some morning soft drinks, we watched the parade provide some interesting, and some odd looking floats. We where on the first floor in Weatherspoon's so looking down, we could see all the internal workings. I'm assuming you had a better view fro ground level.
As the floats proceeded up the wet street (it was pouring with rain), I had the amusing imagery of 2000 queens, screaming as the fire engines, floats and anything on wheels slid back down the hill, lmao, I'm so cruel! . We ate breakfast and took a shortcut, through some back streets to Tristan's to change then meet the parade in mid flow stopping off for some drink along the way as well.
We met Alex, an amazing guy, who's outfit was a rugby kit, from head to toe, socks to ball, even studded shoes, well, I was enjoying the sight, which was amazing, he's older than me, and spent the day getting to know him, he such a sweet guy, generous and with his kit, had rather a lot of attention. I thought id try something a bit kinkier so I was in leather handcuffs, studded collar an even had a leash. Alex led me about as I held his rugby ball, by my leash which was incredibly hot. I waited with him for his bus at the end o the evening but getting to know him, he's an incredible guy, so relaxed and level headed,
After following the parade, we headed to the main park, where all the rides where, with tents, stalls, food, and a sea of people. Paul and Ryan had to pick up their stuff from Ryan's campsite, Tristan and Simon went their own way, leaving me an Alex alone for quite a bit. Partying in the wild fruit tent was fun, which we spent rather a lot of time doing. We must have swapped about 3 different crowds dancing with us. But overall most people where rather friendly. Alex wanted to go on the slides, which gave us a great view, but I got some friction burn on the way down! Grr!
More drinking, Dancing, and tons of walking later, we met Paul and Ryan then Tristan and Simon. We left the park and moved onto the main part of Brighton town. We had a few more drink in town although it wasn't amazing since the town was absolutely gridlocked, people where pushing, and the bars that where serving drink where rammed full of people so we just had one. Paul and Ryan where shattered, and Tristan and Simon wanted some time alone leaving me and Alex alone together again. We got a drink together and chatted whilst he where propped and poked by members of the public as well as his mates, he was by far one of the hottest in the crowd! I waited with Alex for his bus, he's got a cookie addiction, it's such a shame he's got diabetes, such a lovely guy. I realise he's used to it, and it's a normal life but I just felt sorry for him, every so often checking your levels, counteracting it with a drug if you've had too much sugar, it's just not a nice way to live. We had a nice chat and he's got a lot going for him, starting a new job, and chairman of a certain committee. We had some things in common, including the same type of guys, but not in me, shame.
After an uncomfortable nights sleep in Tristan's car, we stumbled to get some breakfast. Me, Ryan and Paul had to sleep in the cars since Tristan's parents couldn't let us stay another night, so wasn't the most ideal plan, and I didn't feel too good in the morning. We went shopping as I ate whheey too much, full English breakfast, then a paste bake pot, then a smidge of a donut, I don't know where I put it all! I got a nice black and grey hoodie, although I had no money, and Paul also gave me a really nice top with the male logo on that he bought for me in turkey, is a great fit!
We left Brighton Sunday afternoon and headed to London, all pretty much sleeping on the train. Paul seemed to be dozing in and out, Ryan the same, and Simon was out the same as me. We pulled into London Bridge, where I said bye to everyone and headed to Simons (a different Simon) house party. It was a great time and some lovely friends that Simon has, although wasn't too pleased when I got mistaken for ‘help' since the majority of the people where over 30. Simon employed two younger people for the party to dish out food and drink. One of Simon's friends asked me if there were any more cava in the fridge, I firmly replied “yeah, it's in the fridge mate”, only realising what he had done, I almost felt embarrassed for him.
Simon let me DJ in the evening as most of us boogied uncontrollably into the next day. It was great of him to offer to stay the night, and although he did employ help, I helped out some of the night since Simon with about 50 people to entertain isn't easy! Anyway I really want to thank Simon to one of the best house parties I've ever been to. As I came home shattered thinking it where all over, Chris invited me for an evening out, which I hesitated but I'm so easily persuaded! after a night on the town, with some drinks, karaoke, and dancing, we got home at 5am this morning and after spending a day doing absolutely nothing, work doesn't seem such a chore!
What a great weekend! Monday 9th June 2008, 11:00 AM
I just want to say a big thank you for all the people that came to my 21st meal on the Saturday, I thoroughly enjoyed myself and it was great to be with all my mates, and to see so many of my close mates round the table was a great feeling. Ill be honest and say that, without my mates I’m actually nothing. Without true mates, it doesn’t make you a very decent person, and I try to be one of those! The cards were amazing and although we didn’t go clubbing the meal was great, people seemed to hit it off, and Crystals boyfriend Anthony, went to his first gay bar, aww! . Again many thanks to, (in no particular order); Paul and Ryan, Brad and Brad, Tristan and Simon, Crystal and Anthony, Sohail, Vuan, Zak and Claire. I’m awaiting the pictures back from Crystal and Tristan. Tristan was the dedicated photographer, and some good quality shots should be on their way soon, and Thanks ever so much for doing that Tristan, I would recommend a man who wasn’t fit for the job!
In other events, I heard back from John! Then night I was out I actually called him about 4am, but it didn’t go through, but only to find out that he had left a message while I was out saying to call him! Aaarrggghh! He only had one day to chat and I missed it, was a tad annoyed about that! On the other hand, I called his mobile a 6am this morning and I spoke to him, was great to hear his voice, and chat to him. He said he would love for me to come out there for a week, maybe longer, and he’s getting his place this month. This will mean we can chat more online, and I guess we’ll see how we go!
Crystal Sorry Dell, I will send you them in a sec. Check you email xxxx Tuesday 17th June 2008, 7:46 PM
Good times! :: Pool Party! Tuesday 13th May 2008, 12:00 AM
Well had a fanstatic weekend, Managed to squeeze in some grand time with my mates, a pool party and some time with paul to kinda catch up. I feel like i havnt spent much quality time with him in ages, Although he is only a mate, I dont have many outlets, and chatting to someone gives us both a chance to chat, and since i havnt had anyone to speak about Max, this was a good oppurtunity.
Friday evening i texted a few people if its hot tomorrow fancy doing some outdoorsy stuff? get a few drinks in, music etc? The day Max ended it, iw as a bit bored and wanted to keep busy. Being such a hot day, getting the pool out was a good idea.
The day had a bit of heat to it, but ironicly, sunday was hotter . Paul and me were the first to get in the pool, then bread and brad arived, then richy and crystal. Richy, Paul and Me, where the only ones in the pool, shaking a little doesnt make it look all that attractive to get in!? said brad, who manages to get, not one, but two knees in the water! .. well for 3 seconds...
The brad ended up sorting us out a BBQ after much thought, and prepared a fanrtastic set fo meats, shish kebabs, Snacks and all, and what wasnt eaten i was muching on the next day. Really, Thanks so much fior that guys, you where fab! any favours you need doing, just give me a bell!
Ive still got Tristans SLR camera which came in good use, (as above), many thanks for that too! Brads even considering buying one! Chris turned up a bit later with a mate, and then came the end of the evening, but was a great time!
Me and paul stayed about at mine for a bit and he helped me clear things up, and then we chatted about things, and as i said before, was a great outlet for me, and as usual pauls all good, hes such a non-problematic person, it almost bugs me! But then again he has got Ryan for the more intimate side
Splash 08 Will be happening this year for all those of you who are looking for a big event for the summer. I will announce the date later on in the year, I did it in august and it has only started to get hot, so will see how the weather goes!
Weekend Madness.... Wednesday 19th March 2008, 12:00 AM
My 4 week rotor at work gives me 3 days off in the middle of it and 4 days off at the end. I do my fair share of 8 and 9 oclocks though.
Friday night was chis leaving do, she has been at John Lewis for quite bit of time and was one of the first people I made friends with, shes sucha nice girl and has a unique style of her own, not to outrageous, but unique enough to know she isnt one of the crowd. We started at the old explorer for a few drinks, and was a nice night of dancing, pictures and i must say, for a work party, was pretty good. Chi had tons of drinks bought for her and fast forward a few hours she was crying, that she was gonna miss us all! aww! after a few episodes, she was then on the couch, asleep, and was a bit of trouble getting her home, but was a laugh! Me and cliff (chis main mate and a workmate of mine) headed to Vaxhuall, and partied in barcode for a bit, and since he has recently had an injured his hand had tons of attention, but it wa nice if him to get me a couple of drinks, since he works there :i. Later on in the evening i travelled into area, to proceed to a guy i was chating to, and had a eventful evening in intself, just seeing that Chi had a nice seeing-off.
Saturday I ended up with chris and kieran and over the night picked up quite a few people and had a nice night here, playing wii, DJing, cards, and a few had a spin on the decks, people are starting to get used to them....
Sunday night Me, Chris and Kieran headed to romford having a few in the moon and stars, moving onto Pacific edge which had some great garage tunes on. I may invest in some, since its quite a grower! The crowd ended up as Me, Keiran, Chris, Luke, and 2 of Lukes mates, now, bearing in mind, Me and Chris are the only gay ones here, saying that it didnt stop all 6 of us sleeping in a small double bed! tossong and turning trying to get somones elbow out of my ribs, heel out my ass, and trying to sleep in a comfortable posistion, without hugging someone! Its not easy when theres that many bodies around!
Sunday Night Me and Amy had a (Small) bottle of baileys to ourselves, and had a nice chat about singletown, population us, and why we hate men . but was nice to spend some relaxing tme with someone I dont spend a lot of time with.
After having a rant about romfords gay-tuesday-nightlife, i then get a call from tristan asking me to come to stratford for a few, and check what Paul, Ryan and co are doing... Paul I found out was at romford with Simon, So where did i end up? Edwards, an organ to the heart of Romfords nightlife. Simon and Tristan seem to get on well and Me and Paul got busses home to leave Tristan and Simon.... well... to it .
I dont understand Romford at all, Since you can host a gay night at edwards and all the straight people come along and
a) Ruin it
b) Make it incredibly hard to see whos gay, now they have all adopted the 'metrosexual' look. Thin ties? Bleached hair? Woolen waistcoats? your straight? Since Fitlads adopts a scally look, role reversal comes to mind.
Well, its 12:30 and i have work tomorrow after my '4 Day Stretch', i just hope the pictures of Chis birthday dont leak to work! Night all!
Time and moneys! Saturday 2nd February 2008, 12:00 AM
Clubbing is fun and i do enjoy myself but its so not worth it sometimes, Me and ryan went out with two of my mates, Jade and Claire, after we had some warm up drinks, went to the club. partied till 4am, The the only thing i seemed to gain from it was a REALLY bitterly cold trip home, and £60 out of my account!
Grr!
Today is going to be pauls SURPRISE birthday party! i really cant wait, ive got to get my hair cut, get pauls present (i know what ive got in mind) and then get a card too! Ryan is taking paul out for a birthday meal and im going to be calling Ryan, posing as his mum hehe and then i can track where he is...
Then Bham! SuPrIsE! well i hope it runs that smoothly anyway. If your on facebook, its under my events, and ive probably invited you if your a mate anyway so just let us know
Its going to be a big clubbing, but this is for an event so i dont mind splashing out for a bit anyway, its all to make pauls night worthwhile
I havnt been on my site much because i am in the Midst of creating a new one! guyspot.co.uk! its a guys forum i am making from scratch, and spending about 9 hours alone just making that page that verifies the users details, i can see that it is going to be quite difficult!
this site is at http://GuySpot.co.uk if you want to join, but its not worth signing up just yet since it may not work!
have a nice one people, and for all those peeps who are coming tonight, see ya there!
New Year, New Priorities Friday 4th January 2008, 12:00 AM
As im writing this know its going to be a challenge..
This year my new years resolutions are going to be:
▫ Get fit (with paul, we agreed on it)
▫ Earn More money, either a pay rise a work, or a new job
▫ Get out more...
The last one is a bit more than it looks, Ok i love my place and everything ive done for it, but i need to travel round this country, and go on holiday in other place with mates too, we are all gonig to organise the holiday this year together, probably me, paul and Ryan, Will hopefully go to somewhere nice, worthy, and hot.
Im going out this evening with paul and amy, and i think Ryans coming too, but im soo broke! i have just enough money to pay off my decks and that kinda leaves me with les money that i kinda have? ah well, see how we go.
Brads birthday was a nice time but it was such a hard crowd to entertain! You have 4 Groups:
▫ The Gays
▫ The Girls (almost the same type of group)
▫ The Straight Guys
▫ and Brad
one of those groups are really hard to entertain, which makes the party go in different stages where you have all the girls dancing and the guys sitting down, Then the gays are dancing, When you get a request from drunky mc mouthy, oh and also grabby! She needed a sleeping pill or 5 minutes in the cold.
Otherwise the night was a good night and the brads where really appreciative, mind you they generally, genuinely are!
My new years was ok, at a mates party with lots of drink and flowing food throughout the night, overall it was a great night, i just wish i had someone to kiss throughout the new year, I really hate standing on your own when 10 other couples are snogging around you!
I dont dispute them doing it i just wish i had a man to do it with, i would of been lying if said it didnt bother later on in the evening
Mind you there was a furious strangling/argument at the end of the night.
Keeping up... Thursday 8th November 2007, 12:00 AM
Am trying to keep up on my blogs hehe, well, hasd a boring week working late and seeing no cusomterws so absolutely bored at work....
Got my sisters firework aprty this weekend, at dagenham, anyone is welcome but you do need you own mode of transport to dagenham way (all details will be provided) if youw ant to come, simple turn up at mine saturday day, and then follow the cars that are going!
Anyway, i need a bulb for the party suice im doing music...
on the left is a bulb, its calle da discharge lamp, do you know much it cost me? £55, and another £10 for delivery...! grr, big lights, big money. Heres the best part, when the go, they dont just blow silently, that bloody explode inside the light! You have to take all the casing off, grr..... they give approx 2000 hours, but theres only a 50% chance youll get that much!
Got a nice credit card wohoo the new 3 in 1 oyster, creditcard, and touch payment, and item under £10 i can just touch and its done, painless and pinless certain stores only though
Hopefully getting the iPhone tomorrow, getting to lonf for 3, and queueing up for 6:02pm when it released! hehe should be fun... A guy in carphone warehouse i know said hed get me in the queue, so im off to carphone warehouse, and my dads off to the apple store, he said hed help me cant wait wohoo!!
As paul likes to say 50% of the time, it works 100% lol
OH! one more thing im now on facebook, Derek Hyams
i tried myspace for a day then left the next lol... how shit, serious issues with design!
Party! Me and Ryan Friday 2nd November 2007, 12:00 AM
Paul has gone away to Las vegas and me and ryan are missing Paul like crazy. Ryan was almost in tears and im dying slowly.
Make sure you take me and ryan next time you muppet, we cant stand it! Muppet, im insulting you since we are in a dyer situation and we cant solve it, weve gone out, drunk till we were silly and nothing, yeah? just come back please?!
Back from holiday! Friday 12th October 2007, 8:42 PM
Just come back from holiday, Spent 5 Days with family and their next door neighbour, and went to Cornwall, wasn’t bad and weather was ok, but you cant expect too much this time of the year. Needed a little break since work was getting a bit stressful, and needed some time away from the boys and the booze, but that wasn’t to say I didn’t drink down there
It’s a 5 hour drive so quite tedious, but services, music moods, and a rest split the journey up. After the crap that the previous guy escalated, I cant be bothered with men, too much hassle, and may just take it easy for a bit, I mean at the moment, you can do much better than your own mates, and I’m quite partial to mine I’ve got to get around to giving the other room some paint; it’s looking a tad shabby so hope to do that at some point.
‘Tis the season to be broke! Christmas is coming soon and money wise I can’t be bothered with it, otherwise I’m quite looking forward to it. I haven’t a clue what to get people and I guess, but me and Paul will be doing out drunk Christmas shopping again, and I really am looking forward to it, was phenomenal last year, a afternoon of drinking, and an evening of laughing and hopefully Paul wont slice his finger open on a Debenhams fixture .
At the moment we’ve got another 190 miles to do till we drop next door off in Chelmsford, then drop me off, then back to Goodmayes for me! Grr, so long!
Thomas Dennis Blah. Because I can. Wednesday 17th October 2007, 12:42 AM
A Silent Blog Wednesday 29th August 2007, 12:00 AM
This is called a silent blog since im not sure if anyone visited the site anymore... make sure you give us a comment or a shout and let us know.
Ive just finished my 5 day stretch at work and ive got the day off work finally, Im really forward to doing nothing. Work has been tiring and extremely hot with brand new air conditioning going tits up! were so understaffed i havnt had a chance to pick on anyone at work! lol I bearly talk to any mates at work any more especially when i am always off too many customer for staff to handle!
Anyway. Went to meet a guy after at work in village and he didnt text me until about half an hour later and we easily agreed at 7:30 and i wasnt ina patient mood, and this guy i have never met since hes USELESS at timing, and this has happened on a few occasions so screwed him off. Fucker.
his profile on fitlads is Here shame, coz he a looker too.
I was a complete 50:50 to do this but i went to pauls place after work (the one i was seeing) to collect a bracelet that i took off at his and went to retrieve. He live in battersea and i got a bus from sloane square, so not easy to get to. He also lives ina nice appartment, with a camera at the entrance where you buzz the house you want. so i did just that.
I tried twice and he didnt answer so i assumed he was out. I got a drink across the road, and to write a ntoe to let him know i travelled there for thsi sentimental, and important bracelet bought for me. I thought id try again and to my luck he answered, This is on a busy road and i barely here him on this useless intercom. He suddenly put the phone down. I thought he was going to come but didnt.
A woman lived in the appartments opened the door to the and asked very politely if i could follow her in to drop a letter off and she let me in. I went to pauls door and before i even reached the door i felt the chain get put on the door. I knocked, and he asked what i was donig there and told him the situation. "Did you look in the couch" i replied. He went to look and came back and said not This is all behind a closed door by the way. I just said fine and left. I had deleted his number on my phone out fo disgust and he had changed his profile on fitlads since the username "ready22settle" didnt go down somewhat too well.
moving on...
Have you ever found someone who has taught you the foundations on everything you base your life on, changes and completely goes against their own word, this can be a little disheartening.
Everything i based my relationships on, commitment to the other partner, a closed relationship has ben shattered. Dan originally told me the foundation of a good relationship and the flaws of a open one. he was strongly against it and now on his profile it says:
"We are seeking (more) friends to hang out with and potentially a little bit of fun on the way also If you have an attitude or are arrogant then please don't bother Looking for someone trustworthy and honest, comfortable in their own skin! Between the sheets preferrably white guys - That's just our preference. But friendship-wise - any and all "
What a cock, someone who kind of brought you up and taught you about the life, love and the way things work, has completely gone against his own words. Kind of like a pedophiliac teacher. so good with kids and does the dirties with the young boys on the weekend. thats how disgusted i am. Cunt.
Steve I hope you got your bracelet back. Thursday 30th August 2007, 7:04 PM
Derek Hyams Lol thanks steve i didnt get it back but crystal stupidly bought me another one, grr! really happy but annoyed she did! Thursday 30th August 2007, 10:47 PM
Steve Sorry to hear you didnt get back but from what I read - "karma" = what goes around comes around. Friday 31st August 2007, 8:00 AM
Tom Dennis Want me to go get it? Friday 14th September 2007, 7:04 PM
RE:RE:Dell: Up Close and Personal Saturday 18th August 2007, 12:00 AM
Well thats it, no more at all, Im making this a quick blog since i cant really be assed and the motivation today has been a bit poo.
Spent the day with crystal, went to nandos, then chilled at mine with will & grace and chinese (too much fast food! :P) hehe
Paul doesnt want me and quoted on hi profile "do have my eye on a certain swedish bodybuilder" so guess he can go fuck him instead but he'll soon find that he'll never get a better fuck than me! give it time....
Dont say where finished, no that'd be too harsh wouldnt it?! We'll Thats it i guess, Im single boring and looking for a relationship... Any offers?
RE:Dell: Up Close and Personal Wednesday 15th August 2007, 12:15 PM
Well you cant always get want you want and i may have gone a little too far one this one. Paul and I was chattin yesterday night and he was a little down, so i attempted to cheer him up, "Do something you enjoy" i said, something like a glass of wine, a bath, or even open the balcony and listen to the rain....
I think he was ok...
We continued to chat and arrange a date for friday, and I recommended going to soho pride together, It cant hurt can it? My mates would obviously want to come out with me, and i can imagine the same for him too.... So i suggested going out as a big group, I mean the more the merrier right??
He mentioned that I was starting to get a little scary, mentioning meeting each others mates and meeting up etc, I mean would it have been a problem to have just said 'I'd prefer us two' or something along them lines? Grr hes such a nice guy and im not sure what i feel today? let down? hurt? or positive, i mean theres plenty of guys out there right? hmmm...
I mean his username (along the lines of) Ready2Settle Kind of gave it away! you cant get more from a username than that! I dont know if i took it too fast but he said he was getting cold feet about having a relationship, and its a real shame because when i was speaking to him he kind of planned his future as if it didnt involve anyone, and i almost felt sorry for him. Some people are destined to be together and i can imagine some have a harder task of getting to know other people too... but i dont think he is is either.
He wants to see how things go and maybe meet up next week, my gut says to me that he doesnt want someone to be with which is all just a little confusing with a name like that...
Dell: Up Close and Personal Sunday 12th August 2007, 12:00 AM
That was, it, i spent so much time talking to him and it was great! its nice to meet someone occasionally who is focused on you as much as you are them.
Oh the beginnning right! Well ive been seeing a guy, called paul, No, not the one your thinking of, Another paul. He makes me laugh, hes a funny guy, hot too. The best part about him is hes sweet, relaxed and very interesting. A boring guy like me needs someone like him!
We had a great time tuesday and went to Rupert Street bar for the first time, its just round the corner from Village and theres a more older crowd there, but i kinda like it. We had a great time there, The best date ive had in a long time!
Its a mild sunday afternoon today and i spent the night at his in battersea last night and i havnt felt that comfortable with a guy like that for ages.
Theres alot in store! Stay Tuned Saturday 7th July 2007, 12:00 AM
My brand new lights. 26 kilos of pure pleasure! And the kefuffle to get them was tremendous... ill explain...
I claimed back my bank charges from Natwest since they are cocks and i used to be really bad with money, REALLY bad. I request the amount £854 back from a nice little form you copy and paste online and send it off, simple! I recieved £830 back from Natwest so was very happy with that result.
They came through yesterday, Friday, and begun my quest looking for some brand new lights. I had done alot of research before and came up with with This its a ncie moving head, and had only has one arm, quite nice
so placed the order with a bunch of other stuff and i got a cal about an hour later saying he could get the for me until the second week on august. I proceded to ask why when he said they are still being made! literally! theyre that new. He said look around the site and see if i can find an alternative, and then found item 120139048399 on ebay, please note this link may not be available in the future. Notice the price was £999, £170 over my budget. At this point i thought id be a bit cheeky and no harm would come of it. I emailed the seleer if i could get a pair at £900. To my suprise he emailed me back about a few hours later saying he would, I couldnt believe it! some top of the range lights worth over £600 each, i was getting a brand new pair for £900! Thing is they where pick up only and only about 20 miles away!
Now that all my mates are driving they said wouldnt mind driving me somewhere as long as I paid for the petrol. This was a perfect opportunity. I called paul and he wasnt going to finish till about 5:30 and needed to be there by 6. I then called chris and he finished a little early than i anticipated, so by the time chris had got out of traffic, got home, changed and made his way round here, it was about 6:45 wey past my timing and the man was so generous staying later just for me, i couldnt believe it. It was around Epping way, and took us about half an hour to get there.
We saw the lights and they where huge! they where bigger than my studio speakers, you need to worry when your liights are bigger than your speakers! . Not only that there was a flight case with them, i now look like im going to put someone in it and saw them in half, it looks like a magicians box!
We got it in chris' car (sideways) and made our way back delicately down lots of roads to mine!
Now the technical specs, They are 2 DMX moving heads with 16 channels, and 16 bit resolution, and they do have everything including:
Shutter / Dimmer / Dimmer Fine / Colour / Colour Fine / Gobo / Gobo Rotate / Gobo Rotate Fine / Focus (motorised!) / Blackout whilst Changing / Prism / Pan / Pan Fine / Tilt / Tilt Fine / Pan&Tilt Speed.
Has a 250W discharge lamp, 540 Pan, and i think is about 150 Tilt
My poor controller only has 8 sliders, but fortunately supports 16 so it have 1-8 then 9 to 16, you push a button to trigger it
So why did i buy them?
I am having 3 events this year! The first ones going to be a pool party, the secong going to be called Electrix bases on lights and something of the sort, and i think i may call the last one kiss, not im not too sure what to base the last one on any idea? So far ive had costume party and a naked one
Evening peeps! I truly hope everyone has had a fantastic christmas, and an enjoyable new year. which is weird considering that was only last night. I realise i take everything to extremeties, but this christmas has been the hardest on me. on two week up to chirstmas i was writing my uni essay on server performace which i had so much trouble undertsanding it.
. But he didnt, he look stunning, was a tall, good looking, guy...
youve really made the end of my 2008 and what a refreshing, happy, warm, loving, sweet introduction to 2009!
My word, what a weekend! From leaving work Friday night to arriving home on Tuesday morning, I'm feeling pretty shattered. Me and Paul left from Victoria about 8, and arriving in Brighton about an hour later. From there we moved on a bar and socialized with the locals. The have a burger bar in Brighton , which I can remember the name of, something grub, good burgers but long queues. We didn't stay for too long since we where up early the next day to see the parade.
As the floats proceeded up the wet street (it was pouring with rain), I had the amusing imagery of 2000 queens, screaming as the fire engines, floats and anything on wheels slid back down the hill, lmao, I'm so cruel! 
After following the parade, we headed to the main park, where all the rides where, with tents, stalls, food, and a sea of people. Paul and Ryan had to pick up their stuff from Ryan's campsite, Tristan and Simon went their own way, leaving me an Alex alone for quite a bit. Partying in the wild fruit tent was fun, which we spent rather a lot of time doing. We must have swapped about 3 different crowds dancing with us. But overall most people where rather friendly. Alex wanted to go on the slides, which gave us a great view, but I got some friction burn on the way down! Grr!
We got a drink together and chatted whilst he where propped and poked by members of the public as well as his mates, he was by far one of the hottest in the crowd! I waited with Alex for his bus, he's got a cookie addiction, it's such a shame he's got diabetes, such a lovely guy. I realise he's used to it, and it's a normal life but I just felt sorry for him, every so often checking your levels, counteracting it with a drug if you've had too much sugar, it's just not a nice way to live. We had a nice chat and he's got a lot going for him, starting a new job, and chairman of a certain committee. We had some things in common, including the same type of guys, but not in me, shame.
After an uncomfortable nights sleep in Tristan's car, we stumbled to get some breakfast. Me, Ryan and Paul had to sleep in the cars since Tristan's parents couldn't let us stay another night, so wasn't the most ideal plan, and I didn't feel too good in the morning. We went shopping as I ate whheey too much, full English breakfast, then a paste bake pot, then a smidge of a donut, I don't know where I put it all! I got a nice black and grey hoodie, although I had no money, and Paul also gave me a really nice top with the male logo on that he bought for me in turkey, is a great fit!
We left Brighton Sunday afternoon and headed to London, all pretty much sleeping on the train. Paul seemed to be dozing in and out, Ryan the same, and Simon was out the same as me. We pulled into London Bridge, where I said bye to everyone and headed to Simons (a different Simon) house party. It was a great time and some lovely friends that Simon has, although wasn't too pleased when I got mistaken for ‘help' since the majority of the people where over 30. Simon employed two younger people for the party to dish out food and drink. One of Simon's friends asked me if there were any more cava in the fridge, I firmly replied “yeah, it's in the fridge mate”, only realising what he had done, I almost felt embarrassed for him.
after a night on the town, with some drinks, karaoke, and dancing, we got home at 5am this morning and after spending a day doing absolutely nothing, work doesn't seem such a chore!
. Again many thanks to, (in no particular order); Paul and Ryan, Brad and Brad, Tristan and Simon, Crystal and Anthony, Sohail, Vuan, Zak and Claire. I’m awaiting the pictures back from Crystal and Tristan. Tristan was the dedicated photographer, and some good quality shots should be on their way soon, and Thanks ever so much for doing that Tristan, I would recommend a man who wasn’t fit for the job! 
He only had one day to chat and I missed it, was a tad annoyed about that! On the other hand, I called his mobile a 6am this morning and I spoke to him, was great to hear his voice, and chat to him. He said he would love for me to come out there for a week, maybe longer, and he’s getting his place this month. This will mean we can chat more online, and I guess we’ll see how we go!
. Paul and me were the first to get in the pool, then bread and brad arived, then richy and crystal. Richy, Paul and Me, where the only ones in the pool, shaking a little doesnt make it look all that attractive to get in!? said brad, who manages to get, not one, but two knees in the water! 
.. well for 3 seconds... 
aww! after a few episodes, she was then on the couch, asleep, and was a bit of trouble getting her home, but was a laugh! Me and cliff (chis main mate and a workmate of mine) headed to Vaxhuall, and partied in barcode for a bit, and since he has recently had an injured his hand had tons of attention, but it wa nice if him to get me a couple of drinks, since he works there :i. Later on in the evening i travelled into area, to proceed to a guy i was chating to, and had a eventful evening in intself, just seeing that Chi had a nice seeing-off.
Night all!
Am trying to keep up on my blogs hehe, well, hasd a boring week working late and seeing no cusomterws so absolutely bored at work....
Crystal
Sorry Dell, I will send you them in a sec. Check you email xxxx
Tuesday 17th June 2008, 7:46 PM