Closing the gap in time... Thursday 1st October 2009, 12:19 AM
People ask me what's been going on lately, I havnt been so sure what to say to them. You um and ahh, trying to think of something interesting, some current affairs to talk about, but recently there's not been a lot going on. I've been slowly getting bigger at the gym, and since then, pauls joined too but we've only had one session together. He has different goals to me; mine is to get bigger, defined and more weight whilst Paul is to go for a 10k and back stating "gosh that was a nice jog". Well, his is stamina to clarify.
This eve I went for a drink with Ross, someone I've seen out and about for years but have never got the chance to really sit down and speak to. He's everything I want, need and desire but as cliché as it sounds 'i'm not sure how he feels back'. he's good looking, mature, very ambitious, interesting, cool, laid back, honest, relaistic... There's loads of words, there's also some small things like he rides a [motor]bike, martial arts, gym, so there a few little things we can relate to as well.
Anyway I shoudn't really ramble, but it's been a neat evening, with awkwardly loud bars and comfortably quiet bars, and I've really enjoyed it. I just hope something materialises. Gosh why does this bother me so much? I don't think I can take the suspense of what could or couldn't be. Ross has [realisticly] come close to what I could call a long term partner that I woudlnt find to be mundane and tiresome or immature and irresponsable, what he has in his life is a reflection of who he is and where he has been and if I could add to that equasion, then I hope to only improve his life upon what he already has?
I'd say the best part about Ross is that he's not superficial or pretentious, he is who he is and that's what makes him special. He's rather content in who he is as a person, but always seeking more out of life, to the bone., it's hard to find a hidden gem sometimes....
Dates, mates and light refreshments... Saturday 5th April 2008, 12:00 AM
Its been a busy week here for me since I've come to the point where I've bitten off more than I could chew so to speak. I arranged to meet a guy for a drink last Saturday called Rob, chatting on facebook and we ended up going to fire and having a nice night partying, he's a great guy, attrictive too but just out of my age range, although he does make me laugh. We'd been speaking for a good few weeks and he had a fresh attitude, unpretentious, and really easy going, but we didnt have anything sexual. I wouldnt say it was a date, just meeting up as mates since that was all I am really looking for. he does have the potential for a nice buddy!
Thats until Max came along....
On Tuesday I met an amazing guy called Max. We had a really good time starting off in Starbucks, and what a lovely day it was, moved on to a bar to drink cranberry juice, hehe thats was a laugh, and ended up getting a shared pizza in pizza hut. That was a better time to chat with a waiter that was either very new to the job, or just a really smiley fella! he even had a smiley face badge, awww!
I had a great time that night and when he suggested going out the next day with a movie and gym. I was umming and arring about whether I felt comfortable in someone elses gym, and eventually agreed and ended up feeling pumped and although we didnt speak too much in his gym, it was really kind of him and i did enjoy myself.
Thursday night I had to myself and then Friday I went to meet a guy again that I did say I'd meet, but again, only as friends. Sam was cool I chat to, but I got the impression he may have wanted something a bit more. Although I don't want to label what me and Max are doing at the moment I'd like to see it go somewhere because he's got a great personality, nice conversator and I wouldnt really want to date or meet anyone else. He's inviting me round his tomorrow and I'm trying to take things slow at the moment and I'm hoping that it all is as innocent as it seems because I wouldnt want to ruin a good dating history with him, Max is a very sexy lad and I will have to resist temptation because;
A) I like the direction this is going
B) I'm useless at taking things slow, and doing a pretty good job c) if and when this moment of passion comes to my fate then so be it!
I mean, we've only been on two dates and havnt even kissed yet, so that could be next on the agenda, and I guess we'll see how we go. I like the way this is travelling and hate to label it but I've got to know where this is going, right?
I'm useless with these things, what worse? Having 10 relationships that went wrong but you know where they where going, or a one 'thing' that could hold potential, but you don't know how to read the signs!
he even had a smiley face badge, awww!
